i cant hear a thing

its red wine on a cold night
now i take the train alone
to a place with notes smiles
and mics a place i feel at home
then its back to you and cigarettes
and what you see you might not get
you can give me more but i'll take less
dont tell the rest dont tell the rest
they may not approve
it wont impress
selling out or selling in so hard to tell as the light gets dim
just momentary momentum
as the idle hands write selfish lies
a picnic for our egos, a miasma lullaby
cant move in here theyre screaming! cant hear a thing
pop! its back.. then its out and gone
now 80 years ago you know
you know you never know
so you step your step as the others go with that fashionable flow
in a building in the cold blue theres the man who takes the stairs
out of breath a bulb comes on as he realizes ..........that sometimes........sometimes the flow doesnt go anywhere

pullie

Jambo! Thats hello in Swahili learn something new here everyday dont you? Sometimes useless for sure but new nevertheless (im a fan of that word three words in one ...neat!) as per usual things have been quite interesting in my life the last little while we just came off a little road trip to Ottawa where we had a show @ the Live Lounge heres a little background- The Live Lounge is a rock venue owned by a radio station in Ottawa called live 88.5 if you live in O-town this is the station you need to be listening to theyve continue to give us heaps of support and airplay and we just plain love them we do (said in a drawly southeren accent) They really are innovators i mean how many other radio stations do you know that have bars to play in? Yeah none cause there arn't any..... these guys do it right...moving on. The show was a sell out we played with R-Mistake and a Kitchener Band called Jen Militia both very good the latter i would say was exceptional amazing presence and energy it was all there had a chance to meet and talk with Mike (lead singer) and a few other members...great people! We played pretty well i have it taped thanks to our video man from Ottawa you rock!!! Oh yeah also thanks to Nat McDonald for taking photos im gonna post them below...you Nat! You also rock!!!!!(5 exclaimation marks for you...count'em 5!) In sound check we sucked you know im a little well...neurotic or as some have suggested insane mental an idiot the list goes on and on and is getting bigger by the day howe-v-e-r!!! After reviewing the tape i have come to the conclusion that there are many things that live up in my head and one of them is delusion Yes!!! It is true i can be somewhat delusional (new one for the list) I am able to convince myself often that we suck and im glad to say that im recently of the opinion that even if we played a show that we considered our worst ever it would'nt suck and thats a good feeling to have...keep in mind that i may lose this feeling once ive had enough time to forget about this new opinion we'll see i guess.

Im almost sure that all the information ive gathered about woman over the years is useless...i know nothing...nothing...i think? its so hard to tell sometimes ive been a single guy for a little while now which is something that i dont neccesarily mind i think...i mean im pretty sure that im the King of failed relationships...im not feeling sorry for myself just the way it is
its so hard to find that balance you know where 2 people like each other the same amount just the same its usually lopsided some people i know just trod on and accept a less than fulfilling mudane existance with thier other i guess because they get comfortable or scared that theres nobody else out there they kinda settle you know? Many are afraid of being alone...because well...being alone can suck! I should know, but im not afraid of it i think it makes people stronger (or crazy)..kidding...where am i going with this? I dont know but to quote a wise man "becareful what you give up to early because youre not getting it back" I had to throw that one in there its so true im beginning to notice, you know whats sad is that im more afraid of love these days than lonliness i mean falling for someone is pressure filled you got so much to lose you know? Fuck i get the shakes just thinking about it, this i know is probably not the healthiest perspective but what am i gonna do? Im sure i'll figure it out one day .......actually you know what?.....thats bullshit im not sure i'll ever figure this stuff out...so i guess i'll just keeping writing songs and stories in the meantime...wish me luck....have a great week whoever you are.

pullie out

ok i really dont know where to begin so much on my mind right now .... well lets start with last nights show, as you may or may not know we played a show last night with a band called "fiction plane" from the UK these guys have been opening for the "Police" for the last 6 months or so pretty big deal really and the lead singer, Joe is Stings son theyve been playing and touring for almost i believe 10 years or so and they are a great band and cool dudes we partied til the wee hours of the morning with them and actually Ian of "Billy Talent" (fucking love that band) and i thinks its Colm of Sum 41(also cool but not as cool as b.t. at least to me) anyway thats another story i will save that for later, ok so back to the show we were called last week about the gig by our booking agent and they said that they dig us or something or someone in thier camp dug us or whatever who knows so Tuesday we get the call that its on so were like cool couple rehearsals thurs fri thursday was pretty interesting i had a fit midway through rehearsal literally took my guitar of my shoulder threw it 10 feet at the wall and i mean fucking hurled it (mid song)it slammed against the wall (brian jonestown massacre styles yikes!) with a massive clanging and feedback as the amp was on and i walked out i think the boys were in shock...why did i do this you ask why? Truth told ive had alot on my mind of late many pressures of life pushing down on me so what was in actual fact a small disagreement loomed large in my mind and i finally snapped ...bigtime didnt last long i was back in the room 5 minutes later giving hugs and apologies but i really needed that really really did, i really just wanted to play a great show on saturday which was yesterday and guess what we did! We in my estimation blew the fucking doors off the place(awesome loving crowd i love you) really really happy with it we all were and weve been working our asses off to get here really really we have but its starting to really really (really really?)pay off, there is so much patience required in this business and that what it is you know a business sucks when art and commerce collide but thats life isnt it? a happy or unhappy medium can be found (pick one) its enough to drive a person slightly mad, i mean lets see ive lost cars apartments girlfriends dignity (at times) my cool friends a bunch of shit along the way but i think these are the sacrifices that you make its this for lack of a better term suffering that makes a band and makes songs and makes misery er i mean memories (kidding..or am i?), ok enough about that. So we sold tons of merch met great new freinds and fans signed a ton of cds and just a great reception great job satisfaction rating for last night im right now patting myself on the back picture it.......got it?...... ok moving on so Joe ...stings son pete the drummer super guy and Seeton the guitar player all good guys again though the drummer pete just a good soul not to say the others are not anyway ok so lets be fair youre dad is Sting ok picture that rocknroll royalty i mean the police! for christ sakes doesnt get any bigger than that so they say the apple doesnt fall very far from the tree and in this case it couldnt be true-er (not a real word for sure) Joe looks and sounds just like his dad its pretty uncanny he even play bass holy shit its like a fucking reincarnation of the former the band is tight and the songs were pretty good "two sisters" very cool song im not sure what im trying to say here really i guess that it was so much like his fathers stuff you would think there might be a departure you know a little bit to try and make it your own i dont know maybe thats just me and dont get me wrong man i have a lot of respect for him and the band i mean fuck hes obviously not doing it for the money and those guys have toured their asses of for years and years played every shit hole from here to timbuktu so you got to give'em props and i do....so this is the part where it gets funny to some or just embarrassing if youre me....... so the end of the night were all hanging packing up gear talking to fans in the foyer just goofing off really i have my vid camera out and im doing my best british interviewer voice joking around with our guys and Joe and Pete and Seeton of Fiction Plane just being a goof you know? what i do.... so were all going to the same party afterwards im filming the boys while were conversing about the adress yada yada yada right?enough said we go to the party good times good peeps got to chat with as i mentioned earlier ian from billy talent really nice guy anyway party is fun you know just hanging stop by luckys house late night because i gave his girlfriend my video camera when we left to go to the party...sooooooo im reviewing the tape early this morning (great show footage) and my goofing around footage and im fucking flabbergasted about what i hear so i rewind the tape and there it is ..."did i say? what! o boy" a complete freudian slip, and i mean bad think about all ive said about fiction plane hes stings son yada yada yada i mean he probably gets comparisons to his dad all the time and a bunch of crtiicism as it is right? keep this in mind ok? so as im reviewing the tape im following joe and seeton to the cab camera running discussing direction to the party and i in my britsh interviewer voice keep going on about fiction police's limo which was just a cab what!!!!!!!!!fiction police? what am i retarded? fiction police? yeah fiction police? and im so drunk i dont even skip a beat joe actually makes a crack at me calls me something or other an im completely oblivious to the whole thing.... fiction fucking police? (i got to laugh now it is pretty funny)im guessing he didnt like that too much only after the party and upon reviewing the tape did realize Joe wasnt all that talkative to me there probably because i called his band fiction police..im sure he thought i was cutting into him or slighting him and really it was completely innocent.......well that s my fiction police er fiction plane /police/sting story.....isnt life funny i never thought i might have a story involving sting in it well we must be doing something right...right?

pullie

right then just gettin ready for this evenings show, looking forward to the affair should be a cracker i think from what ive seen we will be a good fit fiction plane and im really interested in seeing them....might have to take a few notes you know what i mean? thats what lifes all about learning yip hope you learned something today and hope to see you at the show tonight

adios

pullie

Just back from seeing the "Waterboys" @ the danforth music hall and im totally inspired, fuck the bullshit!

night

pullie

Movies thats where my mind is these days not watching making them got a few ideas i mulling over right now for my next project or maybe i will just do a video for one of my songs, the format would be just kinda a stop animation thing but im sure if it will be animated but im thinking 1000's of still frames put together in a running sequence anyway i probably shouldnt even be talking about until im a little more clear, i just woke up and realized i got an extra hour of sleep last night which was awesome weird dreams and some good creative ideas for some projects this morning while i was sort of half asleep, this usually when my best ideas materialize.

Ok to the weekend Fridaty we played the Horseshoe supporting Stag X for thier final peformance which really was superb i was talking to JT (Julian) lead singer (founder/frontman) and i asked him you know "how do you feel about all of this" i mean these guys had been together 10 plus years and done alot and he admitted to me that he was really starting to get emotional and remarked how hard this was gonna be and good on him there was so much support there for them ive never seen the Horseshoe that busy, people had flown in from Vancouver Calgary all over the place to catch this final show, he said he was pretty choked up about it, but i mean thats when you know youve done your job as an artist right? youve touched people in such away that youve made an impact however small or large that it may be youve made the connection! sweet!

Not much to report about our show wasnt really our night i think we put on a fairly strong performance considering some of the variables no sound check very little backing vocals in the mix and my own sinus problems, to quote the Dandy Warhols when its good its fun and when its not its funny.....good rule to live by and keep your sanity in this business otherwise theres no enjoyment at all you just end up over analyszing everything, best bet is to do a quick overview note it and " let it go" however this is all easier said than done and usually i carry this shit around for far to long and obsess over them....basically just because im mental...so it goes..

Potentially friday we maybe opening for a rocknroll superstars son big big big legendary guy supposed to find out tommorow could be fun...ok back to my movie brain

pullie